22/05/2026
A couple of days ago, I did a meditation because I could feel an energy connection with 'upstairs'. During this meditation, I was given a symbol that reminded me of an octopus and an ancient belemnite. I work with both energies in different ways.
However, as the symbol anchored in my body, I saw it become the physical sea-creature, but now it was embedded in a block of stone, as if it were being fossilised. Its conical, round head was the only part of the creature that was not encased in it. The rest was completely stuck.
Years ago, my guides gave me information on male and female manifesting techniques, and I vaguely understood that this block was showing me that my creative self, and the part of my energy that can hold different energy-places (the octopus) was stuck within this block of beliefs. Mainly because I literally cannot expand because I am caring for my father who has very different beliefs to me. And because I am physically here looking after him.
My guides showed me using a hammer to break up the block, which would eventually free my octopus self and my creative energy. "Keep chipping away," they told me.
In the image that came to me, the top part of my 'head' was free of the block, so my mind could still have creative ideas, but because I was stuck in this situation, I could not utilise them.
The block represented my current limitations, including the ones that I believe are true, which I have been slowly chipping away at. My guides are giving me encouragement here to keep on with that process. My beliefs that I am stuck are perhaps only partially true. Perhaps it is just the way I see things, based on past experiences.
I have begun chipping away at them by taking time once a month to visit my mother, rather than fearing that something terrible could happen while I am away.
I have started an art class, reconnecting to my creative side. I have done no art for nearly four years, and I miss it. It's amazing how out of practice you can become in such a short time!
So I will keep chipping the block until I am free. Mentally and physically. Making time for myself. Regardless of what I 'think' - there is always another way.