09/02/2026
It’s been a journey and honestly it’s taken me to my knees and I’ve faced my ego multiple times.
When this whole healing process started, I modified my practices a lot, and kept moving. My moving practices were the the first things I would lean on to shake energy. Especially dance.
When one Sunday I spent almost all day crying out of excruciating pain, I knew my body needed full rest. I no longer fought the process, but I surrendered and gave my all to be there for my body.
I did red light therapy at home every morning and every evening (I swear it’s one of the greatest things).
I began to take a tincture for nerves as soon as I woke up (thank you sister Caitlin Treviño for the gift), a mix of medicinal mushroom powder with my cacao every morning with a flower essence that helps with the womb and pelvic floor health.
I spent a lot of time laying down, because sitting too much or standing hurt.
I started physical therapy very skeptical but last week I had the greatest session and the next day I felt the best I’ve felt since this happened.
Two days ago, I felt the curiosity of being in down dog and when I did, I held it for a couple breaths before feeling something in my pelvis.
An asana that never before had I thought it was challenging.
Now it feels like the greatest reward.
Little steps little steps.
This Sunday I fly to Perú. I am still not able to carry heavy things or even push a carry on. I faced my ego again and asked for a wheelchair. I know my body still needs more time, and if I push it, I would be going against myself.
At this moment, I am celebrating the baby steps I am taking. I might not be able to hold down dog for too long, but a few breaths is great! I can go on walkies with Zeus and Amor. A month ago, I couldn’t. I can demonstrate a bit Latin dance during Hot Pilates. Thank the Heavens for this!
Most importantly, my body is truly healing, and that’s the biggest blessing. 💜
Con amor,
Rukmani 💜
