06/25/2026
Keepin it real ❤️🩹
As I was looking through old photos of the boys today, my heart broke in a way I wasn’t expecting.
Somewhere along the way, I became so consumed by doctor’s appointments, hospital stays, medications, scans, blood counts, and simply trying to get Brody through cancer that I have forgotten all the pieces of our normal life we’ve lost along the way.
Westin is just a baby. Brody is just a kid. And lately it feels like we haven’t really been living life together as a family. We’re all exhausted—physically, emotionally, mentally. It’s hard to make plans. It’s hard for all four of us to even be in the same place at the same time some days. And if we’re being honest, we’re all struggling with that.
I miss the laughter that filled our home. The spontaneous adventures. Weekend trips. Riding bikes. Baseball. Family outings. The simple things we used to do without a second thought.
Life looks very different now.
And sometimes I feel guilty for grieving those things. Because Brody is here. He’s fighting. He’s making progress. And I know there are families who would give anything to be where we are today.
But two things can be true at the same time.
I can be incredibly grateful that my son is here and moving in the right direction, while also mourning the life cancer has taken from all of us.
More than anything, I just want Brody to get better. I want him to be able to be a normal kid again. I want Westin to experience the childhood we dreamed of for him. I want our family to laugh more than we cry. I want our marriage to have space to breathe again. I want all of us to experience some sense of normal outside of hospitals, medications, and uncertainty.
Cancer doesn’t just affect the person diagnosed. It touches every corner of a family’s life. It changes routines, relationships, plans, priorities, and memories. It asks siblings to sacrifice, parents to carry impossible weight, and families to learn a version of life they never wanted to know.
Tonight my heart is just heavy.
Not because I’ve lost hope, but because I miss us.
And I can’t wait for the day when cancer is no longer the center of our story. ❤️