10/07/2026
I'm just so sad. Sad that this is happening to my little baby, that on top of getting chemotherapy and attending the hospital regularly she breaks her collar bone.
It's hard to see her in pain and not understand that now we have to go to see more doctors, have more medicine, and be in pain in a completely different way then what her treatment is.
I try not to think too deeply on what's going on with our lives or else I'll end up crying for probably weeks on ends. I'm sad that this is our life; I'm sad that my husband doesn't get as much support as he should; I'm sad that both my children's childhoods are being spent in hospitals. I'm sad because my child shouldn't have to go through this and I would take her place in a instant. I wish I knew what it felt like to comfort her but I don't. I'm sad because Ada said a bald Lego looked like her when that shouldn't be the case. I'm sad because I had to pretend to be a robot to make sure that my daughter wasn't scared of the machines around her. I'm sad because Ada yearns to be around friends.
Anyways, this journey is a long one. I know that life keeps going for everyone else. But we are still stuck on fighting for Ada's life. Each part of treatment is hard. And I try to be positive but today just isn't that day.