09/09/2026
Getting My Brain Back… One Whoops at a Time 🧠❤️
One of the hardest things about losing your health isn't the pain.
It isn't the fatigue.
It isn't even the uncertainty.
For me...
It was losing my brain.
Before my most recent mold exposure, life looked very different.
I had reached my goal weight.
I was in the best shape of my life.
I was riding 100-mile bike rides and training for an Ironman.
Professionally, I was firing on all cylinders. I was serving as a Regional Medical Director for a large hospital system, running a busy private practice, overseeing a wound care center, serving as medical director for multiple assisted living communities and a large nursing home.
I loved the pace.
I could juggle a hundred things at once and somehow keep all the balls in the air.
Then life happened.
Mold exposure.
A mandatory vaccine.
A stressful relationship.
It was like someone reached into my brain and unplugged half the circuits.
The woman who could manage multiple businesses suddenly had to stop and think about how to spell street names.
Typing became work.
Remembering simple words became work.
Holding a conversation while trying to do something else?
Forget it.
It was terrifying.
And if you've been there, you know exactly what I mean.
People would say, "You're fine."
But inside I was thinking...
"You have no idea how much of me is missing."
The beautiful thing is...
Brains heal.
Maybe not overnight.
Maybe not perfectly.
But they heal.
As my inflammation has come down, as I've worked on mold, mitochondria, lymphatics, infections, genetics, nervous system regulation, and every other layer we've uncovered...
I've noticed something incredible.
My brain is coming back.
I'm multitasking again.
I'm connecting dots faster.
I'm remembering details.
I'm able to think several steps ahead again.
And honestly?
It feels like getting a piece of myself back that I wasn't sure I'd ever see again.
But...
There is one tiny problem.
Apparently my confidence has returned faster than my scheduling skills. 😂
Case in point...
Gio and I are heading to Indianapolis today for my birthday redo.
(Yes... my birthday was in May. Pneumonia had other plans, so Bruno Mars had to wait.)
I wanted everything to be perfect.
Concert.
Hotel.
Massage.
Relaxation.
I booked us a wonderful massage at the hotel spa.
Only...
I booked it for yesterday.
Not today.
Yesterday.
So somewhere in Indianapolis there were two massage therapists who got paid to have an unexpectedly relaxing afternoon.
You're welcome. 😂
It's funny now, but it reminded me of something I see in so many of my warriors.
As your brain heals, you often regain abilities before you've completely regained the systems that organize those abilities.
You're thinking faster.
Doing more.
Feeling more like yourself.
Then...
Whoops.
You send the email to the wrong person.
Forget why you walked into a room.
Book a massage 24 hours early.
Or accidentally schedule yourself to be in two places at once.
Healing isn't linear.
It's messy.
It's beautiful.
It's humbling.
And sometimes it's hilarious.
So if you're walking this journey and you have one of those moments...
Please don't beat yourself up.
Celebrate it.
Because the fact that you're trying to do more usually means your brain is asking for its old life back.
Just maybe...
Don't ask me to plan our next international vacation while I'm answering emails, booking hotels, ordering supplements, and talking to Gio.
We might end up in Iceland instead of Italy.
Although...
Knowing us...
We'd probably have a pretty amazing adventure anyway. ❤️