08/24/2026
These past three days were supposed to be filled with so many fun things for Mateo. 💔 He had different events and activities planned—things he had been looking forward to for weeks. But because of his recent illness, we’ve had to cancel everything. 😭
He understands a little bit, but that doesn’t make it any easier. It absolutely breaks my heart having to tell him, “I’m sorry baby boy, we can’t go today,” when I know how excited he was. And hearing him say how sad he is because he really wanted to go, how he wishes he could’ve gone, and how he wishes he could’ve been out selling lemonade… it hurts in a way I can’t even explain. 💔
As his mommy, I wish I could make everything perfect for him. I wish I could take away every disappointment, every missed opportunity, every sick day, and every moment where he has to understand that his health has to come first. I wish he never had to miss a single thing.
He deserves to be a little boy who gets to just have fun, make memories, go to events, see his friends, and do all the things he looks forward to. And sometimes it’s so incredibly unfair that his neutropenia makes him miss out on those moments. 😭
I know there will be more events. More adventures. More lemonade days. More memories to make. But right now, my heart just hurts for my baby because I know how badly he wanted to be there.
If I could give him the whole world, I would. If I could make him never miss a thing, I would. And if I could take away every ounce of disappointment from his little heart, I would do that too. ❤️🩹
For now, all I can do is hold him a little tighter, remind him that it’s okay to be sad, and promise him that when he’s feeling better, we’ll make up for every missed moment we possibly can.
Mommy loves you more than words could ever explain, Mateo. You may have to miss some things, but you will never have to face any of it alone. 💚💪🏼